regulus a. black

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UNWILLING DEATH EATER . SIXTEEN . SLYTHERIN.[/right][/blockquote]- - - - - - - - [/center]

Here are a series of letters that were found under Regulus' bed in Grimauld place. They were kept in an old box, some of them had sent to the recipient, other's he'd never intended to send at all. Some, haven't been written yet. It is simply a box of letter that Regulus will write in his life.

LETTERS TO MY BROTHER

DEAR BROTHER,
I’M SORRY ABOUT WHAT MOTHER DID. IT DOESN’T MATTER TO ME THAT YOU’RE IN GRYFFINDOR. I KNOW THAT IT MATTERS TO MOTHER AND FATHER, BUT IT DOESN’T MATTER TO ME. YOU DIDN’T HAVE ANY CHOICE IN THE MATTER; I KNOW THAT EVEN IF MOTHER AND FATHER DON’T. MAYBE I’LL GET PUT INTO GRYFFINDOR AS WELL, SO THAT WE CAN STILL PLAY TOGETHER LIKE WE USED TO WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER. WE HAD FUN TOGETHER DIDN’T WE?

I’VE MISSED YOU SINCE YOU’VE BEEN AT HOGWARTS. THE BACK OF THE GARDEN ISN’T THE SAME WHEN YOU’RE ONE YOUR OWN. IT’S HARDER TO PRETEND TO BE FIGHTING TROLLS WHEN THERE’S JUST ONE OF YOU. IN THE SUMMER WHEN YOU COME BACK, WE CAN PLAY AGAIN CAN’T WE? JUST LIKE OLD TIMES? I’D LIKE THAT. I’LL CONVINCE MOTHER THAT YOU’RE NOT A DISGRACE TO THE FAMILY.

SHE’S SAID SOME HORRIBLE THINGS ABOUT YOU BROTHER. I WON’T TELL YOU THEM, BUT SHE HAS. MOTHER HAS BEEN YELLING ALL THE TIME, AT FATHER, AT ME, AT NO ONE IN PARTICULAR. I THOUGHT THINGS WOULD BE FINE WHEN YOU LEFT FOR HOGWARTS, BUT THEY’RE NOT. THE HOUSE IS COLD NOW, I JUST SIT IN MY ROOM OR IN THE GARDEN. MOTHER AND FATHER DON’T SPEAK MUCH ANYMORE, AND WHEN THEY DO IT’S ALWAYS YELLING. I DON’T KNOW WHAT THEY’RE PLANNING BUT I’M SCARED BROTHER.

WHEN ARE YOU COMING HOME?
LOVE, REGULUS.

DEAR BROTHER,
IT’S BEEN A WHILE SINCE MY LAST LETTER, I’M SORRY ABOUT THAT. I DON’T KNOW IF YOU’RE GETTING THESE, BUT IT’S GIVING ME SOMETHING TO DO WHILE YOU’RE AWAY AT HOGWARTS. MOTHER HAS CALMED DOWN NOW, AND FATHER IS SPEAKING TO HER AGAIN. IF I MENTION YOU, MOTHER GETS ANGRY SO I’VE LEARNT TO STAY QUIET. THOUGH I DON’T LIKE WHAT SHE’S DOING NOW.

SINCE YOU’VE BEEN GONE, SHE’S STARTED TO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME. DOTE ON ME AND BUY ME PRESENTS. IT’S LIKE WHAT SHE USED TO DO WITH YOU. IT’S ALMOST LIKE SHE’S FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU COMPLETELY. THE WAY SHE’S TALKING TO ME, IT’S LIKE YOU DON’T EXIST. MOTHER HAS BEEN TALKING ABOUT WHAT SHE’S GOT PLANNED FOR ME, HOW I’M GOING TO MAKE THE FAMILY PROUD. I DON’T LIKE IT AT ALL BROTHER, I REALLY DON’T LIKE IT.

IT’LL BE BETTER IN THE SUMMER, WHEN YOU’RE BACK HOME.
LOVE, REGULUS.

BROTHER,
I’M SORRY, I REALLY AM SORRY. IT’S NOT MY FAULT, MOTHER MADE IT LOOK LIKE I DIDN’T WANT TO PLAY WITH YOU. BUT SHE’S CONTROLLING ME. THIS SUMMER WAS AWFUL, IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD, WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A FAMILY AGAIN. I WANTED US TO SIT IN THE GARDEN, AND GO TO THE BEACH AND DO THINGS LIKE WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER. BUT MOTHER DIDN’T TALK TO YOU, SHE WOULDN’T LET ME TALK TO YOU. I WANTED TO BROTHER, AND NOW IT SEEMS LIKE YOU HATE ME.

DO YOU REALLY HATE ME BROTHER? IS THAT POSSIBLE? PLEASE SAY IT’S NOT TRUE. I DON’T WANT IT TO BE TRUE.

AND NOW YOU’VE GONE FOR ANOTHER YEAR AT HOGWARTS, AND I’M LEFT IN THE HOUSE AGAIN. MOTHER IS STILL TREATING ME SPECIAL, MAKING ME SPEND TIME WITH HER FRIENDS, AND THEIR CHILDREN. I DON’T LIKE IT BROTHER, I CAN SEE MOTHER HAS SOMETHING PLANNED FOR ME. I DON’T KNOW WHAT IT IS, BUT IT’S SCARING ME.
LOVE, REGULUS

BROTHER,
I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE THIS? I DIDN’T DO ANYTHING WRONG. I’M SORRY I WAS PUT INTO SLYTHERIN. I DIDN’T WANT TO GO INTO SLYTHERIN, I WANTED TO GO INTO GRYFFINDOR LIKE YOU DID. THE LETTER I GOT FROM MOTHER TELLING ME HOW PROUD SHE WAS OF ME, IT JUST DIDN’T SEEM RIGHT.

YOU WON’T LOOK AT ME, YOU’RE ALWAYS HANGING AROUND WITH THOSE OTHER THREE. HAVE YOU REALLY FORGOTTEN ME IN THOSE TWO YEARS WE WERE APART? IT’S NOT MY FAULT BROTHER, PLEASE WHY WON’T YOU ACKNOWLEDGE ME? I DON’T UNDERSTAND, I’M CONFUSED AND I’M SCARED AND HOGWARTS IS NOT LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.

AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH ANY MORE? IS THAT WHAT IT IS? BROTHER, WHY WON’T YOU LOOK AT ME?
LOVE, REGULUS.

SIRIUS,
IT’S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I WROTE YOU A LETTER. IT’S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I’VE TRIED TO TALK TO YOU AT ALL. MOTHER IS BEING HORRIBLE, WHEN YOU’RE AT HOME I’M NOT ALLOWED TO TALK TO YOU. IT’S NOT MY DOING, PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT. I DON’T HATE YOU, NOT LIKE THE REST OF THE FAMILY. I DON’T UNDERSTAND, I’M STILL SO CONFUSED. I FEEL SO YOUNG ALL OVER AGAIN. AT HOGWARTS, THE PEOPLE I HANG AROUND WITH ARE SO DIFFERENT FROM YOU. I DON’T HAVE ANY CHOICE.

BELLA IS ALWAYS THERE, STANDING OVER MY SHOULDER AND MAKING SURE I DON’T DISHONOUR THE FAMILY LIKE YOU DID. IT’S MAKING ME SO CONFUSED, I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU’VE DONE WRONG.

I HAVE A FEELING I’M BEING DRAFTED INTO THE DEATH EATERS, I’M SCARED BROTHER.
REGULUS.

BROTHER,
I DON’T HAVE MUCH TIME, I HARDLY HAVE ANY TIME AT THE MOMENT, BUT I NEED TO TELL YOU THIS. EVEN IF YOU HATE ME, PLEASE BROTHER READ THIS.

I WAS RIGHT, I’VE BEEN BROUGHT INTO THE DEATH EATERS. I CAN’T SAY NO ABOUT IT, I CAN’T PROTEST. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT BROTHER, I NEED YOUR HELP.

PLEASE HELP ME, HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS THE WAY YOU DID. I’M SO SCARED BROTHER, SO VERY SCARED.
LOVE REGULUS

SIRIUS,
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU LEFT WITHOUT SAYING GOOD BYE. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE, WITHOUT TAKING ME?

THERE WAS ALL THAT SCREAMING, ALL THAT YELLING, AND THEN YOU JUST LEFT. I KNEW WHO YOU LEFT WITH. IT WAS WITH THAT POTTER, THE ONE YOU TREAT AS A BROTHER. I’M YOUR REAL BROTHER, CAN’T YOU REMEMBER THAT?

I WANTED TO GO WITH YOU SO BADLY BROTHER, TO ESCAPE FROM THE HOUSE THAT’S BECOME MY DUNGEON. I WANTED TO GET AWAY FROM THE DEATH EATERS, I DON’T LIKE IT BROTHER, THEY SCARE ME WITH WHAT THEY DO. I DON’T WANT TO MURDER INNOCENT PEOPLE FOR THE DARK LORD.

I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY I COULDN’T COME TO. I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU. YOU’VE BRETRAYED ME LIKE YOU BETRAYED THE REST OF THE FAMILY. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD COME TO THINK THIS, BUT I DO.

I HATE YOU.
REGULUS.

SIRIUS,
MOTHER WAS RIGHT YOU KNOW. YOU BETRAYED THE FAMILY ALL THOSE YEARS AGO. I’VE REALISED THIS NOW. I SPENT SO LONG WAITING ON YOU TO COME BACK AND RESCUE ME, WHEN I WAS RIGHT AT HOME ALL ALONG. THE DEATH EATERS WELCOMED ME IN, AND TREATED ME LIKE FAMILY. YOU NEVER THOUGHT OF ME AS FAMILY, DID YOU?

I’VE REALISED THAT THEIR CAUSE IS FOR GOOD, FOR THE TRUE PURE BLOODS OF THIS WORLD WHO DON’T TURN THEIR BACK ON THEIR FAMILY. THEY’RE WHERE I TRULY BELONG.

THIS IS THE LAST LETTER I’LL WRITE TO YOU, I’M GIVING UP ON YOU NOW. YOU’RE NOT MY BROTHER ANYMORE, I DON’T KNOW WHO YOU ARE.<BR.
REGULUS.

BROTHER,
IT’S BEEN A WHILE, I KNOW IT HAS. I’M SORRY, I’M SORRY FOR ALL THE THINGS I’VE DONE, AND ALL THE THINGS I HAVEN’T.

THOSE YEARS IN THE DEATH EATERS, I WAS WEAK SIRIUS. I TOOK THE EASY WAY OUT, TO KEEP THE FAMILY HONOUR. TO TAKE YOUR PLACE, SO YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO COME BACK TO IT.

I’M DOING WHAT’S RIGHT THOUGH NOW. I DON’T KNOW IF YOU’LL GET THIS LETTER, I DON’T KNOW IF YOU GOT ANY OF MY LETTERS. I’M GOING TO SET THINGS RIGHT, OR AT LEAST TRY TO.

I’VE MISSED YOU, ALL THESE YEARS. I WISH THAT WE COULD RE WIND TO THE BEGINNING AND THINGS COULD BE DONE DIFFERENTLY.

THIS TRULY IS THE LAST LETTER, I PROMISE.

GOODBYE SIRIUS.
LOVE, REGULUS.

LETTERS TO MY PARENTS

DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER,
HOGWARTS IS EXCELLENT. I WAS SORTED INTO SLYTHERIN, AND BELLA AND NARCISSA HAVE BEEN HELPING ME SETTLE IN. IT’S LOTS OF FUN HERE, AND EVERYONE IN MY YEAR ARE REALLY NICE. I STILL MISS YOU THOUGH. I GUESS I’LL HAVE TO GET USED TO IT THOUGH.

I’VE GOT TO RUN NOW! A BOY CALLED SEVERUS WANTS TO SHOW ME AROUND THE SCHOOL GROUNDS. APPARENTLY THERE’S A GIANT SQUID IN THE LAKE!
LOTS OF LOVE, REGULUS

DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER,
ALL THE CLASSES HERE ARE REALLY FUN, I ESPECIALLY LIKE POTIONS AND CHARMS CLASS. I’VE MADE A GROUP OF FRIENDS NOW AT HOGWARTS, WE LIKE TO SPEND MOST OF OUR TIME IN THE SLYTHERIN COMMON ROOM, OR OUTSIDE ON THE SCHOOL GROUNDS. SLYTHERIN IS THE BEST HOUSE I’VE DECIDED.

WE’VE GOT THE BEST TEACHERS, THE BEST SYMBOL AND WE ALWAYS WIN.

THANKS FOR SENDING THE SWEETS, AND THE NEW BROOMSTICK. I’VE GOT THE BEST ONE IN OUR YEAR NOW. I CAN’T WAIT TO TRY OUT FOR THE QUIDDITCH TEAM NEXT YEAR.
LOTS OF LOVE, REGULUS.

DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER,
BELLA TOLD ME ABOUT WHAT I’M GOING TO DO SOON. I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I’M READY FOR WHAT YOU’VE CHOSEN FOR ME.

THAT’S ALL I’M SAYING FOR THE MOMENT. I’LL SEE YOU SOON THIS SUMMER.
LOTS OF LOVE, REGULUS.

DEAR MOTHER AND FATHER,
I’M SORRY, I JUST CAN’T GO THROUGH WITH THIS. I’VE BEEN DECEIVING PEOPLE ALL MY LIFE AND NOW I’VE COME TO THE END OF IT. I NEVER WANTED TO DISAPPOINT YOU, I ALWAYS WANTED TO TRY AND DO MY BEST.

WHEN YOU READ THIS, I WILL HAVE DISAPPEARED BUT I CAN’T TELL YOU WHERE. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU’VE DONE FOR ME.
LOTS OF LOVE, REGULUS.

LETTERS TO THE THE DARK LORD

TO THE DARK LORD,
I KNOW I WILL BE DEAD LONG BEFORE YOU READ THIS, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IT WAS I WHO DISCOVERED YOUR SECRET.

I HAVE STOLEN THE REAL HORCRUX AND INTEND TO DESTROY IT AS SOON AS I CAN.

I FACE DEATH IN THE HOPE THAT WHEN YOU MEET YOUR MATCH, YOU WILL BE MORTAL ONCE MORE.
R.A.B.

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HELEN xo